do i deserve?

jocelyn ng lizhen,

i believe you might be wondering many things now,
and u want to be alone.

but trust me, two is always better than one.

can i deserve to have one more chance?

i promise you for the very last time,
not to make you scared, and cry anymore... ...

i want to give you happiness

i can't change my temper, but i can hide it.

i can't change my thinkings, but i can overwrite it.

i can't change my negative feelings, but i can remind myself that i love you. the girl whom i promise to live my whole life with.

hope you are reading all these~~~ i don't know why, but i will never give up.
you can call that stubborn, or even childish.

yes, i know you are the one whom i am searching for, we have been through so much together. it is too late to give up.

mei mei and mei mei's mei mei and the rest are all praying for us.
we gave them life remember?
take your time~

-Yixiang-

i am 21 le!

wah my blog long long nv update le..

first of all, my blog profile stills writes 20 yrs old.

i am 21 le! haha

i love mei mei and mei mei's meimei although she is not nice to smell.

i love stitch

i love cotton although she takes up bii bii's time by a lot.

i love bii bii / mummy

and i love the girl who can understand all of these...
she tolerated me for more than a year.

She took care of me and been with me all these while,
we quarrel,
we fight,
we smile,
we laugh,
we work,
we cry,
we love
each other as much as each other.

I LOVE, and sincerely wants to be with her til i grow old.

Jocelyn Ng LiZhen, i am sorry. :'( please forgive me

army days

trying very hard to survive this kind of life..

seeing my friends get use to it, it makes me even harder to accept.

My only motivation of living is Jocelyn Ng, i love her so much.. ..

I love to be with her, i hate to be in army, in camp.

I reported sick as i was vommiting and having diarreoh.. too anxious..
Mo doubted me, and put me to sick-bay to observe me..

wad do they want? see me vomit? but i can't eat anything, i dun have the mood, wad can i vommit? but i feel like vommiting always..

especially after food.. i vomit, most of the times.. can anyone believe me and see this as something wrong, seriously wrong in my life?

feels giddy easily, mentally so weak and so dried up..

:'( FML

my magical life, so far so good

hihi bloggy.

finally after 4 years of saying huat arh! finally i have the feeling of going to huat arh!

business is growing, and i want to grow it to the fullest.

Sometimes i doubt life has any meaning to it, we were born for death.

i want to end my life when i filled what i want.. hehehe...

dear bii bii, i told myself not to cry for anyone not blood related anymore.

but if one day we were to leave each other, will i cry?

yes i will.

maybe because i am now so connected to you.

i am glad that i am able to help you grow..

hmmm thanks.

i won't dare to say but somehow its a yes, its a yes that i know:

i love you

everything i do, its a plan for the future..

not mine, but yours..

seriously i find no meaning in my life now, except spending time with you.

but sometimes when i am tired, i want to just go. i've gt no courage though.

i am happy, to have achieved what i want.

alright, i will continue live on to see what's awaiting!

21st birthday coming~~~

Dreams and Reality

What's the Diff btween Dreams and reality, i finally got the answer.

MY world ... & OUR world.

Can mistakes and regrets be rewinded? My answer is Yes.

Last night i had a dream. I always understand that a dream is formed by the emotions and incidents which happened in real life. It might be something ytd, or even months or years ago.

Thats why i had this dream, a nightmare perhaps.. ..

The characters are all so real, and i am glad it happened only in my world.

When it comes to our world, i know i have granted myself a second chance... ...

Why do humans have regrets only when they lose someone or something.

Cherish them now :D

Thanks for the dream, and the second chance

dream comes true

hii bloggy, i am back after years of not blogging!

guess what? finally i performed as a guest performer in KiKi's Show!

I rmb in 2007 when i first gt started in magic, i am still carrying that bear bear bag, which Derrick always mention to me now. time flies really quick.

I took my first photo with Kiki the Pink Magician back then at Jubilee Theatre.

I guess "Masters of Magic" was the theatre show that made me wants to stand up on to the stage and perform as well, the Magicians inspires me!

i gave my first try of stage magic in 2008, and i routined my Linking rings.

It was only a 3 mins act, and yet 20 friends came.. and i got lots of criticism... ...

Magic Circle is funny, friends will become enemies, while enemies sometimes become friends.

names shall nt be mentioned, but i know u know they know can le.. haha

My second idol besides Kiki.. is Mr Kyle Ravin!!!

I went to watch SAM's Magic Competition back then. The legendary Fukai was one of the guests in the competition! I always remember.. he told me to join as many competitions as i can to get exposures and experiences and of course to make friends.. yes i did :D

oh ya... ... Mr Kyle Ravin, he is the Champion of that competition!

Happy to have him direct "Caution it's Magic!". A wonderful experience of staging our own theatre show with Hasif ! :DDD

Kyle Ravin helped a lot, and i thank him lots lots~~~

nor nor told kiki and he came... with Miss Mole!!!

And yes! last years december, i was told about this Scape's Magic Carnival. And was invited by Kiki to perform in the February's Show!!!!!

WAAHH MAGIC!!! (ok this is one of Kiki's production, and i went as well!!! haha)

i am more than excited, very very excited! until i can't find my costume!

so i was all along practicing in my mind, editing musics...

and 10th Feb, 2011.. 2 days plus before showtime... ... my costume was ready!

YAY!!! i am happy with the end result..

i love my act, my show.

but i know i can always do better!

Learnt a lot through rehersals~~~

THANK YOU MR Kiki Tay for making my Magic Journey even Magical!

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2011

New Year LO!!!!

addicted to the "fish game" at arcades.

Playing almost everyday!

Maybe if play for 3 years then can get diploma le!

WAHAHAHHAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

More and more Stitch!!! YAY!

Ok nite nite bloggy!