Jazz Magic

2012-02-12T08:57:00.001+08:00

have i not tried everything i could.
have she forgetten all the promises, the house, the career.. waiting for my NS to end.

AAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

is she really so heartless!!!!

i am tired... i am tired again

你知道我的心吗？

2012-02-07T22:14:00.002+08:00

不管发生什么事，在哪里，我满脑子都是你。
你说那是依赖，倒不如想想那是关心。。。

你知道我会发脾气，但不如想想那是担心。。。

你听了我的气话，请相信我并不是有心。。。

我给你的承诺，我发誓都是真心。

我的用心，其实很简单。。。

只想让你开心

mei mei is home!!!

2012-01-27T00:11:00.002+08:00

she smells like her mei mei and bii bii.. got bii bii perfume smell..

Bii, a lot pple ask me to give up.. maybe you know who they are... ... viv, nor nor, david ah.. erm some aunties.. ...

trust me? i told them its not abt giving up a few month's boy girl relationship. It is abt giving up the one i took 20 years to find, and decided to live me whatever number of years with her!
its abt giving up a commitment, a promise to the one i love.

i want to be with her, take care of her...
its nothing people around will know, you are too special~~

they told me normally a girl like that means they want the guy to give up le..

they told me they told me..

but what i hear in my heart is to take care of you for as long as i can...
maybe one day its time for me to give up when u are married to another guy and live happily happily. but for as long as i can, i will always be here for you.

when you are happy, i am happy
when you are stress, so m i,
i see you tired, i wanna hug u til you sleep.
i see you hungry, i will feed you delicious food.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

mei mei is home le.. she says she miss you now.

just hope one day, mei mei can see us everyday.
yes ... us... everyday.

i never give up, even til the very end..

jocelyn ng lizhen, gd nite... ... ramen dreams

pretend i never knew you

2012-01-25T18:53:00.002+08:00

pretend i never knew you
and i knwo you will not even care

my tears just kept on rolling, with sorrow in my heart.

i keep on thinking of the moments, when we are so happy together,

you chose to leave me, so ruthless and heartlessly.

i can do nothing, because i tried everything.

i cried, i beg, i prayed, i work hard.. end up i got nothing.

nothing... ...

for all i love you.. yes i love you.

but for all happiness, i did not get, i got myself countless pains...

i know you want to get rid of me, its ok.. i will walk away quietly... ...

and i still love you. Jocelyn Ng Lizhen

i dunno what to do

2012-01-24T22:35:00.003+08:00

i am lost right now.

all i want is to hold her hands again, i never gave up.

to me, she is the sweetest girl i ever seen... i love her so much.

bii bii huh~~~ i will never forget you no matter what.
have a good night. will be here always... i am available for you always~~

do i deserve?

2011-11-25T05:53:00.002+08:00

jocelyn ng lizhen,

i believe you might be wondering many things now,
and u want to be alone.

but trust me, two is always better than one.

can i deserve to have one more chance?

i promise you for the very last time,
not to make you scared, and cry anymore... ...

i want to give you happiness

i can't change my temper, but i can hide it.

i can't change my thinkings, but i can overwrite it.

i can't change my negative feelings, but i can remind myself that i love you. the girl whom i promise to live my whole life with.

hope you are reading all these~~~ i don't know why, but i will never give up.
you can call that stubborn, or even childish.

yes, i know you are the one whom i am searching for, we have been through so much together. it is too late to give up.

mei mei and mei mei's mei mei and the rest are all praying for us.
we gave them life remember?
take your time~

-Yixiang-

i am 21 le!

2011-11-22T05:20:00.002+08:00

wah my blog long long nv update le..

first of all, my blog profile stills writes 20 yrs old.

i am 21 le! haha

i love mei mei and mei mei's meimei although she is not nice to smell.

i love stitch

i love cotton although she takes up bii bii's time by a lot.

i love bii bii / mummy

and i love the girl who can understand all of these...
she tolerated me for more than a year.

She took care of me and been with me all these while,
we quarrel,
we fight,
we smile,
we laugh,
we work,
we cry,
we love
each other as much as each other.

I LOVE, and sincerely wants to be with her til i grow old.

Jocelyn Ng LiZhen, i am sorry. :'( please forgive me

army days

2011-10-26T21:04:00.002+08:00

trying very hard to survive this kind of life..

seeing my friends get use to it, it makes me even harder to accept.

My only motivation of living is Jocelyn Ng, i love her so much.. ..

I love to be with her, i hate to be in army, in camp.

I reported sick as i was vommiting and having diarreoh.. too anxious..
Mo doubted me, and put me to sick-bay to observe me..

wad do they want? see me vomit? but i can't eat anything, i dun have the mood, wad can i vommit? but i feel like vommiting always..

especially after food.. i vomit, most of the times.. can anyone believe me and see this as something wrong, seriously wrong in my life?

feels giddy easily, mentally so weak and so dried up..

:'( FML

JOCELYN NG LI ZHEN i love u

2011-10-16T08:47:00.001+08:00

never once i know i love someone so much.

one day if i am gone.. take care of yourself.. i swear.. i truely love you..

thank you and sorry.

my magical life, so far so good

2011-05-03T01:48:00.002+08:00

hihi bloggy.

finally after 4 years of saying huat arh! finally i have the feeling of going to huat arh!

business is growing, and i want to grow it to the fullest.

Sometimes i doubt life has any meaning to it, we were born for death.

i want to end my life when i filled what i want.. hehehe...

dear bii bii, i told myself not to cry for anyone not blood related anymore.

but if one day we were to leave each other, will i cry?

yes i will.

maybe because i am now so connected to you.

i am glad that i am able to help you grow..

hmmm thanks.

i won't dare to say but somehow its a yes, its a yes that i know:

i love you

everything i do, its a plan for the future..

not mine, but yours..

seriously i find no meaning in my life now, except spending time with you.

but sometimes when i am tired, i want to just go. i've gt no courage though.

i am happy, to have achieved what i want.

alright, i will continue live on to see what's awaiting!

21st birthday coming~~~

Dreams and Reality

2011-02-21T09:27:00.003+08:00

What's the Diff btween Dreams and reality, i finally got the answer.

MY world ... & OUR world.

Can mistakes and regrets be rewinded? My answer is Yes.

Last night i had a dream. I always understand that a dream is formed by the emotions and incidents which happened in real life. It might be something ytd, or even months or years ago.

Thats why i had this dream, a nightmare perhaps.. ..

The characters are all so real, and i am glad it happened only in my world.

When it comes to our world, i know i have granted myself a second chance... ...

Why do humans have regrets only when they lose someone or something.

Cherish them now :D

Thanks for the dream, and the second chance

dream comes true

2011-02-16T10:27:00.002+08:00

hii bloggy, i am back after years of not blogging!

guess what? finally i performed as a guest performer in KiKi's Show!

I rmb in 2007 when i first gt started in magic, i am still carrying that bear bear bag, which Derrick always mention to me now. time flies really quick.

I took my first photo with Kiki the Pink Magician back then at Jubilee Theatre.

I guess "Masters of Magic" was the theatre show that made me wants to stand up on to the stage and perform as well, the Magicians inspires me!

i gave my first try of stage magic in 2008, and i routined my Linking rings.

It was only a 3 mins act, and yet 20 friends came.. and i got lots of criticism... ...

Magic Circle is funny, friends will become enemies, while enemies sometimes become friends.

names shall nt be mentioned, but i know u know they know can le.. haha

My second idol besides Kiki.. is Mr Kyle Ravin!!!

I went to watch SAM's Magic Competition back then. The legendary Fukai was one of the guests in the competition! I always remember.. he told me to join as many competitions as i can to get exposures and experiences and of course to make friends.. yes i did :D

oh ya... ... Mr Kyle Ravin, he is the Champion of that competition!

Happy to have him direct "Caution it's Magic!". A wonderful experience of staging our own theatre show with Hasif ! :DDD

Kyle Ravin helped a lot, and i thank him lots lots~~~

nor nor told kiki and he came... with Miss Mole!!!

And yes! last years december, i was told about this Scape's Magic Carnival. And was invited by Kiki to perform in the February's Show!!!!!

WAAHH MAGIC!!! (ok this is one of Kiki's production, and i went as well!!! haha)

i am more than excited, very very excited! until i can't find my costume!

so i was all along practicing in my mind, editing musics...

and 10th Feb, 2011.. 2 days plus before showtime... ... my costume was ready!

YAY!!! i am happy with the end result..

i love my act, my show.

but i know i can always do better!

Learnt a lot through rehersals~~~

THANK YOU MR Kiki Tay for making my Magic Journey even Magical!

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2011

2011-01-14T01:59:00.003+08:00

New Year LO!!!!

addicted to the "fish game" at arcades.

Playing almost everyday!

Maybe if play for 3 years then can get diploma le!

WAHAHAHHAAAHAHAHAHHAHAHA

More and more Stitch!!! YAY!

Ok nite nite bloggy!

HOME

2010-12-14T23:09:00.002+08:00

home page for JYmagic.com

if these nv happened, probably i will not coming posting here also.

therefore this might be a good thing!

hehe...

i have a life that i wished for, i have a stable magic and ballooning income,

i have a wonderful gf Jocelyn Ng bii bii.

i have good friends around me.

EVEN MR KIKI is inviting me to perform, and yes! we will be standing on the same stage.

Christmas is gonna be fun, 31st december is gonna be madly tiring and exciting!!!

Everything is so perfect, except... ...

when i am tired and want a place to rest, i thought of home, but where is it?

where is my home, my pillow, my bed.. nope.. non of these exists.

i am like a flee hopping around houses and sleep on different beds each weeks..

sometimes not even a bed.

can i have my own room?

or at least a corner of my own..

wait wait nonono, i want a big room!!! to put in all my props!

Wheeeeeee....

just when i think everything is smooth~~~

2010-08-19T20:17:00.002+08:00

challenges comes!!! (its problem, but i treat it as a challenge!)

yes i am positive! i don't give a damm abt sadness.

now my challenge is, i am stress and i am trying to fall in love with it.

my time is short (not dying!), but i am going NS!

wohoooo i love SINGAPORE! haha

so i am trying to speed things up here.

my savings...booom went from 2k to zero coz i love spending, without spending a thought of my future..

i just kept thinking of the past, which are not doing anything good.

my GF start to lose passion, i don't blame anyone, in fact i point my finger at myself..because i lack of patient to train and nurture her.

but (this is not an excuse), time is rushing me!!!!

i HAVE TO SPEED UP!

guess what, my father has high expectations on me!!!

he expects me to earn 2K for a month which is very possible!

but i learnt to invest and building up my assets, not just to work for money!!! and thats what i am doing! i am getting back to manage my beloved company with MR KAE! (who is pretty much very successful now)... and he is my ROLE MODEL! yes he is :D

he taught me many things abt money! yes money..

Things i have to do, and i have to teach MS JOCELYN to do :D

coz i know i am responsible for her.

i should stay mature and sensible for what i do.. but i let my emotions over-run me these days..

end.

jocelyn Ng

2010-08-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was dying

2010-08-10T17:51:00.002+08:00

for a moment i thought i was dying.

went to hospital just 2 days ago..

counted down to national day in the hospital...

and for a moment, i thought life could be so fragile..and i feel so much like to hug the one i love.

and tts her:

i hv got many friends around me which i could not bear to lose..

and Mr Kae

its my bibi again...

now i hope i could cherish my life, and of course the girl i love..

right until that moment i know ... i am deeply attached to her..

such a emo post..

ok i am alive, glad that i am..

:DDD

2010-08-02T00:32:00.002+08:00

Bi Bi i am sorry :D

I read ur post, and i post here :DDDD and say sorry

and of course thank you too.. thanks for loving me.

I LOVE NG LI ZHEN JOCELYN !!!!

nite nite~~~

Blogging

2010-07-31T00:03:00.004+08:00

we all have the freedom to blog..

and i love blogging! ever since i first started magic..

i finally knew..hey! life is fun...

here i note down every part of my life, the lovely ones...and the :'( ones...

maybe thats also why i hold back too much of my past.. especially those :'( ones, repeating non stop in my mind..

i hate it, but i chose it this way..

Lizhen taught me to move on, in a very special way. how i wish i know this girl earlier..

but it is diff isn't it? however this, i think its just the right timing..

a right girl on the right timing.. :)

just stop thinking too much, of the past.

YOYOYO future is waiting, and happy with her. :')

thoughts are addictive

2010-07-23T00:07:00.002+08:00

thinking can be addictive..

yeah, its simply like another world.. things are going on in the other world..

and it will affect our reality.. it could be deadly, it could be happy.

let me be positive... i have the power :D

and yeah..

no more doubts..

i Love Jocelyn Ng :)

i am happy when i see your smile bi

could our life be just a joke?

2010-07-22T00:17:00.002+08:00

what is true in this world..

i lost insight of everything that seems to be true, because my hope and dreams are mostly spoiled and ungranted by promises that were made..so real..

i couldn't bear the past.. could i even accept who she is, or how her past were.

these thoughts just could not stop running in my mind..

why is it so

WHY IS IT SO?!?!?! DAMM IT, i say DAMM IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life could be just a joke.. Fuck~~

what is love then? we all lie, we all kill, we all sin

we sucks!

i miss everything that were good, peaceful and full of love.

i feel so .. Damn it! right now...

could i just pass away from this world.

not face this reality..

I HATE MY KNOWLEDGE and UNDERSTANDING to this world..

mS jOcelyn, what is in your mind?

what and why?

what am i thinking..

DAMM DAMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can i admit that i love you..

but i miss u..

again.. could i just pass away...

i just hate these everything..

you just could not understand..

hug me if you would, but u didn't..

sometimes "thats all i want" might sounds silly, but thats all i want.

link to my thought and understand me.. please..

help me to understand you as well..

i know you will... you always surprise me..

with the rest of my love... ...

A Human's Mindset

2010-07-14T13:18:00.002+08:00

i often look back to the past, thinking negatives though out my mind.

the future don't look any good either.

i miss the days where i treasured the "now", thats when my past did not affect me, and the future is not hindering me..

Biaodi said that human's mind thinks negatives and positives.

but negatives are very powerful... with all positives thoughts in your mind, one single negative could just blow them all away! ~~~

i refuse to move, i just want to stay here... unless someone makes me feel like to...

i hate this feeling of losing something when i get something...

and those feelings that i am about to lose something.

should i just not make those things mine, so that i will not fear of losing it.

but i am happy with it.

or should i mean her~~~

bi~~

should these reflections tell us clearly about ourselves in front of one another..

i should learn to trust ... again... but its really painful to get hurt.

right now i am physically sick, and emotionally thinking a lot... ...

this is what i want, i am happy being who i am.. i want to be with you..

dont start something with an ending in mind -KY BADI

I love you Jocelyn Ng

home to stay

2010-07-13T00:03:00.002+08:00

life had been tough ..but glad that i have u around..

bi bi..

i just want a room to practice, a house to stay, a life to work on...

alamak..

feeling sooooo emotional..

and i want internet access..

jocelyn ng bi bi muack!

negative

2010-06-24T11:39:00.002+08:00

bought a basic lomo cam for ah bi~~ and learnt abt negative and positive films..

cool cool...

i need some financial plannings..

and the matter of fact that i hate to face the reality makes me spend more..

Urban Circus's dvd haven come yet...hmmmm

many a times i feel like posting negative thoughts, but when i start to think what to write..

i dun feel like being so negative..

so lets write some happy things!!!!!

ok empty too..

guess my head is empty.. ok stop posting..

bibi~~~

vacation modules

2010-06-17T08:58:00.002+08:00

post title is vacation module, so i hv to post abt vacation modules.. haha

Miss Lai, my lecturer of the 9am class, is very good!

and its 9am now! omg!!!

i am still blogging -_-"

Balloons brought us together, and as i was wondering nothing comes positively without negativity...

i found out the little spark of jealousy that balloons can actually bring...

but as when i was seeking solution in my heart, i saw a post on facebook by a friend of mine.

He says that life should not be a competition with others, and not even yourself. As life is too short for these things. Be happy is all we need.

Yeah thats roughly abt what i digested from what he wrote.

Bi i Love you ~

living in tomorrow

2010-06-07T10:38:00.003+08:00

i still owe him design!

my cousin : ACE Tan Chien Hock

actually i just do finish le! email out and i feel lighter now.. LOL.. by 10 kg! joking!!! waahha

went swensens with bi and kailun yesterday.

i can't finish my icecream! they shared the chocolate fondue, while i had my banana crumble. and yes, i cannot finish, why?

coz i am full..

and one of the staff, a guy, approach me to buy a balloon for his GF!

this is him and his gf:

just joking!!! he is a human la..

i sold him a cute little bunny for $1..

transparent hearts like these are very very nice..

this siao char bor is very cute :D

NG AH BI!!!!!

live in the present, Cherish the NOW :D

i am happy with you~

人间有奇迹！

2010-06-06T10:42:00.002+08:00

in the first place, wad do u want to talk abt, keep on asking me to meet up..

everything will just stay at it is...

ah bi and ah bii floating on the water..on the angel hearts..wah i love this photo :D

multiplying fish ball :D

steamboat turn out ok ok onli..

u know i always have the mood to blog..

but when i start typing, i loss the feel..

and hey! i am getting left out behind..

catching up! (and yes, after saying that, i admit i am far behind)

WHAT A FEELING :')

keeps no record of wrongs

2010-06-04T01:06:00.004+08:00

LOVE: keeps no record of wrongs

therefore it can be perfect :D

but will it exist?

look at this heart..

sometimes we follow, we learn an we got into a R/S..

we learn to love..

but the sizings and aircontrol is never perfect..

we say.. happily ever after will not exist..

maybe lets try another formula?

this is a perfect heart with a perfect formula :D

weave it nicely!

Perfect love does exist:D

be the right one, and the right one will come :D

the mood to blog

2010-06-03T11:13:00.002+08:00

it seems my i haven got the mood to blog for long time..

few days only nia actually, but i use to blog everyday..i think.. haha

the red balloon actually cast a red shadow :D hohoho cool hor

past two days i went to teach a balloon workshop.. and u know hor.. Ah bi very fierce leh..haha but i like ~

i know u will say: EEEEEEEEEE

ok fine!

how much? $50? -____-"

these are the students, 9 in total. 2 came from outside the student care so u see they look older.. 3 is hiding behind the chairs.. haha

i think hor, Mr Lim, the principle.. the very funny .. haha

he can be very very fierce and at the same time very blur.. LOL

After the workshop yesterday (which end up fun :D ), we went to IMM..

walk walk walk, and she emo coz of somethings..

so i try to make her laugh :D

and then we head to my fav! TCC at raffles :D

with these Ah bii and Ah bi.. haha

then we went to eat bakut teh, and my stomach is exploding!

hohoho but it never explode, heng~

crossing the road...

on top of the lion outside dunno wad hotel..near funan there.. :P

and we walk and walk and crap and laugh and we reached Cityhall MRT :D

yes we walk from clarke quay to cityhall to digest the food lo..

and we bounce, poing!!! from cityhall to marina, and back to khatib..

sent her back home and meet Norvin Ong!

He walk me to Khatib Mrt lo!!! super touched :D

i love ah bi~~

Urban circus

2010-05-31T00:12:00.002+08:00

waiting for photos an video! haha

i know i could have done better,,

but!

haha you seems to be more important to me then this show~ hmmm

in the dressing room! dressed up!

this was in the morning~ did a kids show at suntec :DDD

ok back to urban circus!

upon arrival, i saw this..

so i snapped a photo

nowadays my bones seems to dislocate very suddenly..

major parts are my fingers, and now my toes!

OMG!

will i die?

CHOI!

haha its kinda rushing today, but its wonderful!!!

looking forward!

my MaGiCAl dAy!!!

realization

2010-05-28T12:06:00.002+08:00

Success is a day to day realisation of preplanned personal worthwhile goal!

-ChienHock Fav Quote

day by day, i choose to drown myself in my emotions, but i knew that tt would

never be the right way to live life.

Mikki once told me, the best way to cheer urself up, is to help people cheer up :D

Happiness spreads :D its just that magical :D

i miss many people in my life... ...

now i know the only thing we can do is to cherish what we have around us!

its really really important

ooo these two rat-bits are attached ..haha

haven i lost focus in life?

having a dream is powerful enough for someone to move on, and do greater things.

i want to remind myself each day..

An Entertainment restaraunt! it will be realized!

2010-05-25T09:18:00.002+08:00

blogging blogging blogging. workload seems to pile up, and thats the result of keeping too many promises to people around me. should i be more reluctant in accepting or agreeing in helping others?

this situation makes me feel like doing nothing, ya.. simply doing nothing... ...

i've almost love to give up hope if i thought i could not give my best to anything. should i be emotionally attach to someone when the fact it no one will stay with you forever. People come and go, thats the law of this universe we r living in.

I know i must be back to watch the finals, i have to keep my promise. and thats a tough one.

can i tell you how i feel?

Miiss Jocelyn drew this out

2010-05-24T21:53:00.001+08:00

:D haha

passion

2010-05-24T08:15:00.002+08:00

(brasbasah MRT)
this whole journey is certainly like magic!

school's officially over! hmmm actually not yet, for ME!!! hmmm so many modules to retake.

i am really happy to be able to start learning magic and changed my life. . .

to be able to learning from Fuming, Kiankok (whom i still have negative thinking against)

and met Jannson, Mark, Jimmy, Jason Lei, Jaspas, Brandon...

many many things happen along the way... then i got to know Benny, Paul, Melvin, whom got me into show biz... and the journey goes on..

i came to know who's Jeremy Pei, Kiki Tay, Alex T, Kyle Ravin and many professional Magicians!!!

I nv gave up on stage magic, no matter how lousy i was at that time... its really nervous going up on stage, but i love to show the world like: hey, i can do magic! i am not useless.

but now truely, i want my magic to bring hope to people, i want my magic to entertain people, i want my magic to touch the heart of people. and i want my magic to inspire people, just like how i got inspired.!!!

Thank the Universe for my beloved one and only BADI..

Its like MAGIC!! to later got to know MArkson, Nor Nor, Jocelyn and Jastina!

I LOVE EVERYONE OF YOU!!!!!! :DDDD

sorry if ur name is not mentioned, but u know who u r lo..haha!!!

I LOVE MAGIC SO MUCH! Its an art of bringing hope to both the performer and the audience :D

action speaks louder all the time

2010-05-23T09:39:00.002+08:00

but i just don;t think it is loud enough to reach to... ...

anyways, just read Kae's blog yesterday night, and he says his mummy found her blog!

wah if my mama found my blog~~ O.o...

and he posted something abt blogging style..ya lor.. diff pple diff blogging style.

of course, just like him, we both love Jannson's blogging style.. :D

a photo, and talk something funny, then another photo, and something funny.. haha the whole blog post become very funny..

u know u know???

but my blogging now is like Badi's, one photo, many words..actually is purposely, so that some people will lazy to read..haha but if u want to know wad i am thinking then read on.. LOL

yes i miss her so much!!! why??!?!? die die must stop.. but i just feel like flying out now to find her!!!!! i just told some stupid lies to her that i am not going because @#$#%..

but u know u know .. @#$#@%#@..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA MR KAE throw this event to me and #@#$%@

ok not blaming him.. now he bill gates le, dun need do a lot of things.. haha JOKING!!

yeah we r both JUST JOKING!

HAHAHA i want to go find her.. ok it will be a surprise then.. dun care le.. ok go out now! HUAT ARH

june

2010-05-22T23:17:00.002+08:00

...
i m irritated,

i am sad,

i am jealous..

i am all negative! DAMM!!

teach me how to not PRETEND TO BE NEGATIVE

but really be positive..

ok i try..

June~ CHIOBU RIGHT?!?!

*haha

and she never hv bf b4 !!!

this makes me feel this world still got hope!!! (note: i am not eyeing on her)

but its really unbelievable lor!!!

Represented AlphaPlus and performed a 20 mins show at Club52!

this is so last min! I told Mr kae not to come, coz u see the stage!!!!!

its not even a stage!! Pub setting..

managed to put up some last min acts.. whew.. and..

June and i went off early.

and we ate brownies :DD

and drank soya milk.. chat chat a while..

but didn't expect that this morning's meeting will be cancelled :(

I TOLD HER I WILL WAIT FOR HER O-LEVELS TO FINISH!! haha

and Yizhen also quite good looking, also nt bf b4.

nowadays this kinda girl very rare!

feel so touched when one of this kinda girl exist.. really touched

u might be thinking i siao.. but really lor!

i also so good looking, but have ONE GF b4.. aiya.. wasted?

eh...

hv i not forgotten my own self-promised promise???

good night :D

blue ah bi~

2010-05-22T09:45:00.004+08:00

went to perform at Club 52 for a Dinner... and i made a blue ah bi to accompany me :D

on my floating table...

ah bi go toilet with me to change up...

it was fun performing. thx jeremy soon, alvin and te rest for cheering like crazy .. LOL..

and June!

however.. she can't help me anymore due to O-levels..

its ok, people come and go... ...

aren't we just like strangers right now?

ok la..

ah biis on cab (260 de ah bii)

NAVY open house!!! haha had fun :DDD

b4 the show, we made 260 male ah bii..

logo changed!!!

lazy to type words..

ok..going off for shows..

err hem, sounds like someone.. but.. really going off for shows la.. haha

ah bi~~

2010-05-21T00:32:00.001+08:00

i just want balloons to last forever. i hope it is possible..

i hate looking at u like a stranger, and u looked back like one too.

Fuck~

18th May

2010-05-18T10:14:00.001+08:00

it was 2 yrs ago.. MEOW~

damm, these wounds just can;t seems to heal...

i miss u badly

2010-05-15T10:49:00.002+08:00

Quite a few events are going on recently. this month i have some big shows coming, with my theatre appearance in JC Sum's Urban Circus!

in June we have tons of workshops, and Kae's SMC magic finals!

July will be full of shows! August hope i dun go into army yet, will be spending my time updating the designs! September will be JeremyPei's Theatre show which Willy will be performing!!! WOW!

LOL HUAT ARH!!!

J&J Twisting!

Jocelyn and Jastina,( in their sweet 18) are really passionate about balloons. With only 2 years of balloon twisting experience, they had already did more than hundred of events, twisting more than thousands of thousands of balloons for little children out there. Their curiosity in balloons pushed them to further explore new techniques and new sculptures. Up til now, they never stop learning and practicing. If you would to ask me: how many sculptures can they twist? I would say: The sky is their limit!

foto shoot with J&J

2010-05-13T10:49:00.002+08:00

wanted to start off by posting a non edited photo, but i am rushing! hohoho

so this will be a quick one:

Really thanks Norman for helping with the shooting, and Xueting for the Make-ups on the girls.

Thank William and Ken for coming and help out.

i was kinda disappointed at first, with the results of the photos. however, photoshop save the day!

Good job Jocelyn and Jastina as well, its your first time, but u did a great job trying your best to pose in front of the big black camera! haha especially when there are people walking around.

The final result is kinda studio-ish!

thats great!

stay tune for more photos in my facebook. Blogsite and some brand identity coming out soon:D

HUAT ARH!!!

i enjoy these balloony and magical days.

i will not look back.. no more...

you cheated

2010-05-11T01:05:00.003+08:00

yeah u cheated, u did a shortcut..

while i took another way route.. consider this.

a week VERSUS a year.

this afternoon, a song's lyrics caught my attention.

it writes about one, leaving the single party, bearing the pain of the past relationship.

hmmmm u did admit, but i couldn't face the fact.. u love another man

I will be performing:

that will make me a bastard, just like that china fucker.

i dare not write much...

had been sticking to Jocelyn for these days...

She has good balloon skills and talent and passion. Thats good, thats good...

We "dreamt" the tutorial of this new "heart" weaving.

Ahh its kinda confusing i know, but we had to keep it a top secret.! :D *wink

she name it: Angel Heart

:D i had to stop, somehow..

Mother's day! celebration

2010-05-10T00:47:00.002+08:00

things can't remain forever, nothing last.

be sure that you know this fact!

just like balloons~~~

gathering with my family seems to be less exciting each year.

it was really really fun in the younger days..

now, people seems to be kinda busy with their own lives

did a show for the old folks home opposite my house,

and i prepared to cab to Kyle Ravin's house, to return him some stuffs

i think i need to change certain habits.

i am so confuse about certain things now, dammm

why am i in this sort of situation?!!?

it is no good!

but

i just simply can't stop, (its an excuse)

i just don't want to...

mother's day!

2010-05-09T09:41:00.002+08:00

soon after my happy birthday... its happy mothers's day!!!

yesterday was fun, travelled to pasiris with Ken and Jocelyn for Jocelyn's sis's friends 21st birthday chalet balloon deco (take a deep breathe, inhale, exhale...)

what a day...

night time's incident was hilarious, to me, i was like... w.t.h!

nevertheless, i enjoyed..

it was an unique experience after all :D

seems that i kana those virus that i want to meet you everyday.

aaaaaa erase erase erase...

come on man, i should learn from my mistakes.

yeah, therefore i am JUST JOKING!!

yeah i am..

but now, its true that ur name is just stuck in my head!

lalalalala

My Birthday Celebration 2010

2010-05-08T01:44:00.002+08:00

What a straight forward name for my post..

should i be more straight forward to you?

here's a pic of my dinner with the gang of funny people!!! :DDD

there's broderick, norman, kae, norvin, ken, jocelyn and Me!!!

a sunflower :D very nice!

yo!

my very first puff heart that Glen shared with me :D

guess wad? i forgot the method le... LOL

Jocelyn, Glen and my Ring hearts!:

spent most of my time with Miss Jocelyn. thank you a lot.. :D

thanks Glen for the lunch at mind's cafe!

and thx Kae for organizing the dinner! :DDD

thanks everyone for coming..

HUAT ARH!!!!

HAPPY 20th Birthday..to ME!! :D

2010-05-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

on the 6th May...

Went to school , from morning til 7 plus.. for our FYP Presentation!

one lecturer fxxxing spoil my mood..ARHHHHH!!!!!

sadded very much, but Mikki gave me some good suggestions.. ok nw i know wad i can do! huhu

after collecting back my work, i don't wanna go home :'(

so i went to khatib to find Jocelyn!

and Jastina! (haha super unglam)

and NORVIN!!!! my nor nor!!!

with two lolipops made by me and joce..

really enjoyed, or not say enjoy.. rather fruitful and comfortable and u know.. erm.. very friendly night.. how should i say.. hmmm but u know u know..

haha anyway.. Jocelyn and I made this! :

Letter "J" made by Jocelyn :D

then on 7th MAY!!!:

YAY..nites people..:D

thanks Jocelyn :D

sorry

2010-05-05T02:31:00.001+08:00

how should my tears b able to roll down so easily...

i am sorry ..

N-A-F-A

2010-05-03T19:12:00.005+08:00

year 1, met DEQI, LEO, ALAN, Zhiwei.. and the list goes on. and then

from 1B~~~ Mikki, Xianhan, Alvin, Meiman!

Tons of memories! love them so much :'D

so much that the head don't match the body...LAME -_-...

no more looking at theo's Mac seeing those illustrations!

i miss my friends, especially the international students :(((

this stitch is for Yingjia :DDD

and i miss the macbook chargers charging all together...

I MISS THEM! I WILL :'(

and them..! Xianhan is repeated...

i hate departing!

school's over, for them..while i get to retake 5 modules! haha

THEREFORE I WILL BE GOING BACK NAFA!

LOL thats kinda good news !! HAHA

nonono, its not.. erm... just don't like this feeling...

ok its Magic time.. life still has to go on..

i miss everyone.. especially U, whom i miss so much :')

case sticker!

2010-04-28T01:15:00.001+08:00

cool sia! always wanted to print this, and now FYP..

gave me an opportunity to get it done!! haha it lompang onto one of my FYP items.

SO HAPPY I MADE THE RIGHT DECISION TODAY!!!

SO FUCKING HAPPY!!

whew.. i was like..heng.. and i was like.. HAHA

ok time to sleep!, coz its abt time to wake up!!!

My immortal

2010-04-28T00:13:00.002+08:00

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

Humans are born to die, all efforts to achieve perfection will always come to waste.

just enjoy life...

a random photo:

Hey Norman, thanks so much for the photos :)

Badi, :DDD

FYP almost done

2010-04-27T09:56:00.002+08:00

i rushed through my project,

very happily i managed to create some good works...

the sadness motivates me, somehow...

in fact we don't owe each other anymore, but i just can't hold myself from looking back.

yim is right, even if i turn back, u r already facing someone else,

what makes me so stupid? by forcing u to tell me those excuses, then the fact that u prefer the other guy.

can i tell u that i can't move on because i love u?

i love U!!!!! :(

EPIC!!!

2010-04-26T01:33:00.002+08:00

whats so epic! i have been hearing this word in class for many many times, from Theo and Naz.

and i have been making ring hearts non stop!

this one's for Shenny

this one is randomly made at home.

this is the "Covers" membership card, item number one that i printed out!!!

kinda satisfied with it.. .. and! FYP continues..more items were printed the day b4 yesterday...

what a world, how r u gonna be faithful with such imperfection in human beings?

you talk abt trust, you talk abt hope, you talk abt faith.

you made promises, and commitment. and...

everything can goes to nothing at the blink of an eye.

what do u do when you have to be faithful when u had already made commitment.

but that waiting gives you NO RESULT AT ALL, if u give up...

WHAT RIGHTS DO U HAVE TO TALK ABT COMMITMENT again?!?!

you see, balloon tells us so much abt a human's imperfection:

we can never twist 2 exact size bubbles,

therefore we can never twist two exact same sculpture.

we can prevent a balloon from bursting, but we can never stop it from bursting.

good news is:

WE ARE THE SCULPTOR, so WE R IN CONTROL!

WE GET TO CHOOSE THE SIZE AND COLOURS!

WE CAN HAVE FUN PLAYING WITH BALLOONS!

ok thats all for now, for my balloon theory class. contact me for more details.. LOL..

btw, i did a birthday party this afternoon.. ok so random..

tatas bloggy :p

FYP!!!

2010-04-20T13:21:00.002+08:00

Will challenge the black balloons after FYP!!

Mickey Mouse!

Mr Kae

Biao Di collected his costumes!!!

beli cartoon neh, and i could not fit into his tail coat!

my birthday is coming! and it falls right after my beloved FYP.

and til then.. i am working hard, sleepless night, counting downs..

weaving balloons, flourishing cards, spinning parasols...

ahhh i am going crazy with this kinds stress.. but it is kinda fun too..!!

wad toking me..

time's almost up, gonna bath and head to school!!!

Friday die die must finish and then PRINTING!!!

time just don't want to wait for me :(

i will be back!

self-based emotion

2010-04-18T23:32:00.002+08:00

was performing at Caribbean at Keppel Bay, level 2 function room

for two brother's birthday (wow i am so specific)

during my routine, all of a sudden, my thumb dislocated, and i wasn't able to control it

it was the left hand's, and u know wad?

i forced it back in place,

OUCH!

ring heart, gone yellow..

The day doing balloons could have made me forget those shits.

Damm i am suppose to be positive..

i mean those challenges i have to face now.

should i just passed away few months ago with "that" incident as an excuse,

life won't be so CHALLENGING now.

Pls, something make me feel impt, or tell me that i am impt.

what i seriously learnt about life today is:

never conclude something based on your own emotion.

Something that i really learnt only today...

Cab home, was too tempted.. tired mentally to the max.

physically i think i am ok.

ok time for supper and..

Continue this countdown til my birthday!!

until then

^U^

Further away

2010-04-16T00:32:00.002+08:00

I'm numb to you - numb and deaf and blind.
You give me all but the reason why.
I reach but I feel only air at night.
Not you, not love, just nothing.

i don't wanna keep hoping, i don't wanna stop hoping either... ...

2010-04-15T01:33:00.002+08:00

were u speaking to me through those posts...

if yes, i thank you.

i Love U.

i do...

Krinze

2010-04-12T16:59:00.002+08:00

i can't believe i actually shoot this fellow secretly!!!

MR KAE!!! it is TRUE!!! HE SELLING THOSE CARDS TO LITTLE KIDS!!!

OMG

OMG!!! CAN"T STOP LAUGHING!!

and thx NORMAN FOR THE assist! we did it! two shots of him!!!

HAHAHAHAHA!!

ok..

tts all..

QIAO (FATE)

2010-04-07T01:02:00.002+08:00

oh man wad a day!

oh!!!

wad a day!!!

ok day time i got so inspired by some kids magic props and ideas were flying around me.

next i went to the kitchen and had my late breakfast..and ...

NORVIN CALLED. ok the story starts..

he was heading to TWCC for magic rehersal.

so i asked to join in..

poof!

i bathed, changed, packed and flew!!!

woohoooo i reached there in abt an hour.

guess wad, a very recognizable back view appeared.

i didn't called out "JASTINA" straight away (yes so qiao, its Jastina)

so i called her hp, and the girl infront apparently picked up her phone.

i asked: where are you..bla bla bla and then..

i said:

i am behind u!

haha then bla bla bla bla bla!!!!

COOL SIA.

ok next, rehersal, or rather practice session, went pretty well and fun!

Had Macdonalds!!!

and went off back to Woodlands!

Huimin gave me a banana key chain!

awwww so romantic :')

Banana, Alan and Nor Nor came to my house. and then Banana went home.

Alan and Nor and I head to LongJohn to have dinner.

when it was abt to close, we head to Burger King...

and

and...

and...... outside Burger King,

I SAW LILIAN with her BOYFRIEND!!! OMG OMG!! hahahahahaha

then a voice shouted: Norvin!

and it was Gabriel!!! (the balloon Gabriel)

and...he taught the Ring heart to us!!!!!!!

first attempt is so sucky!

i took his home: nice sia!

and now i am on my bed, still weaving non stop, actually i am blogging now..haha

anyways. oh ya!!

saw an angel!!!

wait let me think...her name is... June!!!

ya correct!

AND SHE IS SOOOOO CHIO LA!!! haha

ok Chiobu only for us to see see..

haha but really CHIO LA!!! haha

Gabriel mentioned abt how we could actually create wonders with just basics of our skills, be it balloon or magic or juggling.

its how deep we actually study INTO the basic techniques and theories.

he got a point.

a wonderful point there..

wow!

and it truly inspires!

good night. and i realize this: 3 more weeks to FYP..WTH!!!

i think i saw someone mentioned that its on 7th May.. (my birthday?!?!?!)

HUAT ARH!!! wonderful day with so many qiao he (coincidence)!

Mr Curry

2010-04-06T11:51:00.003+08:00

Mr Kae went to malaysia! can't contact him :(

huhuhuhu.. went to Mr Curry at Central..was intending to try the blablabla Ramen which online reviews actually beats Marutama's!

And i went there, saw the place, and realise i ate it before!

and its like, Marutama's Way Better!!!

especially the soup!

and YimYim and i went to Mr Curry!

Pork something something Curry Omelette Rice!

taste so great!!

side dish: the fried something something tofu!

Taste so cute!!! and extremely awesome with curry, so honest and innocent.

(what a way to describe food )

Mr curry found Mango Cat and they found the best curry in Japan and then it is brought to Singapore.. cool..

not full enough!!! so i ordered Curry Ramen!!!!!

the ORIGINAL ONE!

NOT BAD!!! HOT AND DELICIOUS

and wad's best? i don't need to pay!!! Yim Yim treat me :D

and she owe me one ice cream :)

don't ever want me to forget u.

i will still water the plant every single day.

Even if there is no plant just water the pot lo! haha

ok no link -_-...

^U^

pinning your hope

2010-04-04T03:04:00.002+08:00

number 1 rule is life, nv pin ur hope on anyone.

there will be a time of betrayal, and there will be a time of disappointment.

but perhaps thats one of the weaknesses of a human being.

anyone could be soft-hearted, even the most persistent ones.

as much as anything could be good, anything could sucks too.

never trust anyone, just trust yourself to trust someone.

this theory will halve your sorrow in the future.

everyone has a motive, anyone has a motive.

just live by this merciless law.

or be pinned on hopes, and get urself some fucking rejections in life.

A merry Christmas 2009 :)

2010-04-03T00:47:00.003+08:00

was just messing up my room trying to find that NAFA report slip. but i couldn't.

i just made one last wild guess based upon my number of absences without reasons,

for my forth - gonna - retake - module.

COOL SIA my GPA...sad sad sad..

but still..i emailed to the lecturer.

right at the corner of my bed, lying on the shelve is this little card:

I received the card in a very special way...

i was sleeping, and of course in the morning i wake up! and i was at YimYim's study room.

when i woke up, this card was beside me.

so cool sia :)

The ultimate sex between life and Balloon - Snails do make love!

wad's this?!?!?! u r wondering...

its the shadow of this little bunny!!! Made by Lilian, who just started sculpting for the first day!

Kae.. Ace.. no i am not playing cards, just mentioning their names!!!

My wonderful cousins!!! let me repeat... MR KAE & MR ACE

TADA!

main point is to blog abt the Christmas card lo..

ok good night! happy day ahead!

April Fool

2010-04-01T00:16:00.002+08:00

i told the rabbit its not april fool. I LOVE U... :'(

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svndisunvinvdsvds

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Friday meeting Brod for breakfast. and its 178 Lor Mee!

devilish delicious gravy with those deep fried juicy Shark nuggets

2010-03-27T23:14:00.000+08:00

why do she feel so impt to me all of a sudden...

damm it 666th post

2010-03-27T22:35:00.003+08:00

its the number 666 post! OMG!!!

just saw block 666 at Norvin's house there.. zzzzz

haha

nevertheless i had a happy day :)

now slacking at TCC, dear badi sick sick still come work :(

of course, my new floating table!!

went to the magic shop in Johor,

thanks Jeff who drove me and Kae there..and i tell u, look at the price of the magic props!

cool! trust me you will be really shock!!!

(a glance at the shop owner, Uncle Peter)

there is a mini "stage curtain" inside the magic shop :) how cool!

the above pic was almost a week ago :)

and here's what happened recently...

this morning! William and i went for a event at pasiris...

thanks to Mr Kyle Ravin for getting me for this balloon show :) Wooots

Rushed home!!!! and rushed to khatib!!!

and to aljunied!!!

for the "OWN THE STAGE" audition:

Norvin and i, photo with JC SUM AND MagicBabeNING!

til the next post people..ciao!

OWN THE STAGE

2010-03-25T02:30:00.003+08:00

can't wait for my props to arrive in SG

and some stuffs are still with the tailor!

WOOHOOOOO...

Yeah, and own the stage. Joining this competition organized by the renowned illusionists duo in SG, JC and Ning.

and they actually use the same name as us! OWN THE STAGE!

so i decided to go to "their" audition and give it a shot.

I remember i don't smile, or rather don't love to smile.

until i met two special person in my school.

they taught me how to smile :P

And to all who share my smile with me, i thank you :)

U, taught me abt Faith. And's thats all i could ask for.

And thanks for the Happy Ending that you gave me.

i was unappreciative.

and at least this is the little secret we share which non of the world knows...

now i thank U

simplicity?

2010-03-22T01:18:00.001+08:00

how do u lead a simple life?

it can't be achieved without money...yeah money..

indeed its a key to many things..

had marutaman just now.. and that can't be acheived without: Money!

anyways..it was delicious!! hohoho and Glad that BADI love it as well :)

finally finished the tons of work i piled up for FYP stage 2.

was at TCC for the second night chionging.. and rest for an hour just to figure out the horizontal heart...and i failed!!!

fine! how much? haha lame -______-

she replied today.. and i was totally speechless.

don't want to do anything for the sake of doing anymore..

dun want to aim for anything and not enjoy the process for achieving it.

i love to be happy all along. and i am :)

not too late to understand that.. again :)

HUAT

Chocolate of wealth

2010-03-20T19:25:00.002+08:00

rich chocolate taste! best best..and working with my mac again..

this was yesterday, at soup spoon:

heart and spades!

rushing and rushing for my FYP.

.. .. ..

waiting for monday to passby... ...

2010-03-17T21:38:00.002+08:00

"Better late than never." - Marshall Sylver

but why must i be late, i must be early..

but in some situations, somethings have to be on time.

i have a problem of being late recently..

i was always ready for challenges, because i know i faced and overcomed many.

but now i just choose to avoid the rocky paths...

I just thought of having a simple life.

... ...

LOVE

2010-03-17T01:51:00.001+08:00

The joy of intamacy with ur partner is the reward of both's commitment.

Will you choose the everlasting, or the fleeting pleasure of the moment? Love is patient, to wait is a way to show love, to protect each other before marriage.

Love is not proud. Communication is the key to a relationship, but often our pride draws us away from the proper communication.. If u really cherish a relationship, I urge u to put ur ego aside, things will result better :-)

'one on one dating has the tendancy to move a guy & girl beyond friendship towards romance to quickly'... build up a strong friendship first! for a relationship based on just physical attractions & romance feelings will only last as long as the feeling last.

Wad is dating? movies? Romance? Kissing? Holding hands? WRONG! Dating is the BRIDGE from friendship to marriage. Do be ready for commitment!

There are many good ones out there that may cause you to get tempted, but you should choose the best from there.

Look for a wife, not a girlfriend!

Do not treat any one of your friends as your potential girlfriend.

How do you know who is the best for you? When you're happy, the happiness will be share with ur partner and it should be times 2 of the happiness. When you're sad, it will also be share between you and your partner and it will be divided by 2.

A right partner with a wrong timing is a wrong decision.

PromoVid intro 2010

2010-03-14T00:20:00.002+08:00

wad happen to me "yesterday"

2010-03-13T01:06:00.002+08:00

after the show at Lengkong Tiga block Party...

things just don't seems right, feeling all wierd.

i am not trying to find excuse for a poor show today..

but its true the atmosphere is unique...hmmm and the audiences are rather cold.

unique simply means wierd

nevertheless i enjoy the day.

Video editing with some animation kills time real fast. while mosquitos feeds on my blood.

i feel itchy when i feel tired because of them..

and...

nites.. its 5.30am i need to wake up ltr! zombie... ...

recently, something seems not right... ...hmmm

2010-03-12T02:41:00.002+08:00

this might be one my my longest post title..

Markson told me this on MSN, and my hair stand..wooolala.

Jastina inside..

and talking abt her..hmmm

friday night will be having a stage show..doing the routine with her the 2nd time.

some personal thoughts towards her... ...

nvmind.. some people will be reading..

so i know you know can le.. wad toking me.. ahhh i don't expect it to bother me soo much..

and i was designing with my heart thinking of "that"..

and "that"..

AND "THAT"!!!

focus..

hmmm..

school 9am!

siao!

9.45am.

ya..

sleep.

nites.

similarities

2010-03-11T00:02:00.002+08:00

you two are so similar..

can't stop thinking of the future that i want.

and where am i makes a big matter...

days of anxieties and worries, glad to some bits of happiness in it. :)

the first phrase goes.. Love is Patience...

人间有奇迹！

2010-03-10T00:17:00.002+08:00

人，最少看到的脸孔。。就是自己

电视节目〈魔幻视界〉让我知道了魔术很多的含义。

而我也选择了这段道路。。。。。。

to all teens out there who feel hopeless and un-loved,

be AWARE...

as much as the number of people who hate you, somewhere in this world, there are as much people who love you!

人间有奇迹!

badminton with NAFA gang:D

red team: Meiman and Xianhan

from afare..the other team: Deqi and Alvin

Mikki was sick and couldn't join us. :(

then i head off to meet kae, and Money flew away like this..

and the end result will look like this!

our weeks of excitement:

no one's gonna pity you.

no one's gonna take you with them forever, neither do u take them with you along forever.

I love wad Jastina says:

Everyone have a PAST, So Treasure the PRESENT now or else it will turn to be a PAST too.. :)

Being Human

2010-03-08T23:35:00.002+08:00

one of the hotest topic in Singapore is now Jack Neo's scandal.

and of course his recent movie: Being Human.

i read a note posted on facebook written by a friend which really caught my heart.

>>> the content is basically saying this:

Jack Neo produced wonderful films and touched so many pple's heart and lives, but no one really credit him.. but an incident like this brought him into such a state.

Human world is simply too unfair....i just watched this movie:

with NOR NOR, Kae & BADI!!!

this morning Jocelyn and Jastina came, and stuffed into my swordbox...

many more things to post up soon..

til then... few things in my mind...

Thailand competition, Studies, and her... ...

went balloon baron today and finally met David.

a sentence he said that left a mark in my mind:

there is only one 19 yrs old or 20 yrs old in your life. once passed, its passed..

yes..

and i am gonna live life to the fullest..

HUAT ARH!! LOL

Badi

2010-03-08T01:26:00.002+08:00

"Many people have the mistaken belief that if you give someone everything,
they want all the time, then you are guaranteed a great relationship."
- Marshall Sylver

Some problems with my dreamweaver.. deleted my adobe fireworks and it affects my dreamweaver! thats how life works as well, decisions you make will affect one another.

haha like that also can link. i am so nervous for monday.. why? ? ? ?

and had a short great time playing monopoly with jiumei, badi and fei fei (domo). it will be great to have two sisters. :) haha

good night people.. orh orh liao. nites badi also..

once per mistake

2010-03-06T00:41:00.002+08:00

its seriously more than enough...

now its not a matter of learning to..sometimes one time..just one time is more than enough.

its spoken by the dead.

stop it!

2010-03-05T20:35:00.002+08:00

sometimes u make my life sucks, or it is just all in my mind..

but it just sucks!!! stop it!.. Fuck ... ...

BADI

2010-03-05T06:20:00.002+08:00

BADI in this pic. only we see ourselves.. hmmmm

it was another day of weirdness and happiness. and it all begin in the morning when i skipped school. went to find Jas, and then the night activities with my badi.

did this illustration on my OWN!!! yes.. finally not drawn by u anymore.

but u r missed...

so this is Jastina with balloon dog, and balloon monster with the teeth made of sculpting balloons in vary sizes. Chim huh...

Badi it was quite a night. spending time with you sharing stories that we both went through.

pretty much amazing to have someone like you that exist in my life.

haha

its like Magic.

good morning!!! ok sleep!

foolish

2010-03-03T01:56:00.002+08:00

Stupidity is doing the same thing while expecting a diff result. . .

while i say: Foolishness is expecting your effort to pay off

this is life, not everything that you put time and effort in will turn out to be a good result that you are expecting. but the good news is, you earn yourself an experience.

Maturity is setting your priorities right, knowing who and what comes first and what comes next.

Love is what we commit, not what we receive. so when u receive love, its given to you by someone else. Cherish :)

Love or Obsession? , don't get yourself confuse... ...

cny shows over!

2010-03-01T01:40:00.003+08:00

Nor Nor busy with his phone...

Jas also busy with her phone...

Jocelyn busy playing with Silk... -_-

sat night, Tampines West's Magic Show:

did two shows, one on saturday.. with Jastina!

we rehearsed at twcc for a few hours before the show.

it was fun :)

sunday morning was one of my best shows. My brother did his linking rings in the middle of my show when i was abt to end it with "Love Letter" routine.

not forgetting i was late for the show coz i waited 30 to 45mins for a cab! OMG.

after sunday's show i went to E-hub with my brother to eat curry fish head!

actually to find Jastina and Jocelyn...

then my brother and i played arcade like crazy, enjoyed ourselves..

then later from khatib cab to gombak.

Night time went to meet the Panjang-ers for Lao Yu Sheng ah!!!

HAHAHAHAHA

lazy to transfer photos now.. til next time baby..

when love is a decision but not just a feeling, it becomes possible to last for eternity. :)

yes i want something in return

2010-02-27T01:41:00.002+08:00

I have minimal Faith in things i do, and people i want to commit to.. .. ..

unless they show me a reason to put in a 100%

BAKUT TEH opposite blk 2 market near my house! SHIOK!
TCC at Plaza Sing with Banana and Kae
stitch.. how i wish there is someone i can account for.

someone to go extra miles for me

i shouldn't live life to such complications. however.. i am just stuck so deep down in it...

i can be happy, and all the sudden the negative emotions comes in trying to take over..

often i feel threatened, i want to prove that i am better. i want to show the world that i am good. for those who look down on me...

i don't want that to be my motivation. anyone please, tell me i am impt to you. anyone..

:'(

sotong

2010-02-25T01:27:00.002+08:00

my first photo is a sotong, so i decided to name this post sotong...

Jazz, isn't that what you have been "praying" and asking for? isn't that what you want?

why putting on a hope on one that is "almost" hopeless.

why not just go for every opportunity that comes to you right at these moments.

i always find my own solutions from my own questions...

its just a matter of time, but will i be on time...

yes time.. i got myself a watch from bugis village! damm cool! $10 nia! best buy

and mikki was like: EHH!!!! Raymond got the same watch..but diff colour.. haha

Me: -_- thats not the same

She and her "R", she even went to laser cut something for his "R"'s birthday.. :)

Oh yeah i went for NS check-up with Xianhan.

surprisingly yet out of expectancy, i saw many nafa students there for check-ups.

Result: Pes A

time to serve the country real soon!

Positively, i cleared my room, most of the mess.

i got myself settled down, finally! 90%.. after almost a year.

Why r u still ignoring me.. i just hate it when i know u do that out of Love. Make things clearer please... ...

patience is the key, balance is the rule, love is the reward

2010-02-24T10:48:00.002+08:00

Jing is attached, to Jocelyn!!!!!!!

its like, so touched.. if u know their story.

haha its so wonderful! (limited vocab).. haha

anyways i am simply happy for them!

guess neither of them are reading my blog.. lol..

but i am so happy la! haha...it feels as happy as i am attached..

what else? going school later.. lol this news really brings up my mood!

Maybe thats how true love affects others and bring others happiness as well :)

happy things happening all at once.. overwhelmed happiness..

AND YES I CLEAN MY ROOM LE!! miracle!

BIC

2010-02-22T02:40:00.001+08:00

after morning's show.. heading home for a change...

With Alex T.

i am inside the mascot!

yes i am inside!!!!!!

got my brother to perform the linking rings on stage, respond was very good! :)

Btw, i was hired by BIC to do a 5 mins stage performance and mascot walk-around.

things to worrys and what not

2010-02-21T02:18:00.002+08:00

ah bi does magic lo..

brought ah bi around today for my shows. had fun. and happy to have someone beside me running around for shows.

NAFA GANG! miss them love them !!!!!

things always changes, and this is something which i come to realize many years ago.

change along with them, thats what i knew few days ago..

Change to a different path if necessary, that's what i hate the most.

Never to be bothered until the right one appear ,

meanwhile getting myself right on the track.

LOL PARTIEZZZZ

blogging non stop

2010-02-18T20:22:00.002+08:00

i wonder if anyone is reading..nevertheless, i still love blogging so recently.

confused thoughts at the moment, but not for long..

decided to be alone again..

nothing comes easy.

i know, i have faith.. one day..

it will just pay off.. when i meet the right one. :)

meanwhile, guys !!! HUAT ARH!!

steeping into other's life

2010-02-18T10:58:00.002+08:00

it never had been easy to step into Shenny's life. and when i thought that everything paid off, shit happens. and i know its my fault..what can i do now? that's when i really feel helpless.

glad that things turn out better, and i had my chance to do illusion.

Hey tts a dream-come-true!

thanks Everlyn again. :)

now maybe its time for me to be happy again, she had been ignoring me again.

i know it isn't easy for her as well, i learnt to be less selfish.. i hope..

this sat, i will be doing my sword box with Everlyn again, hope we haven went "rusty"

got to video it down! :)

Nafa Gang steamboat! long time since we gather, i miss Year 1 , seriously!!!

and now i am taking another step further.

i do not hope this time round i am right or not,

i will just follow the principle of living my life to the fullest...

i know i am and i will be.

keeping "U" in a special part of my heart.

Good morning folks, time to go school soon! :)

已经碎成太多块,要怎么拼凑跟重来

2010-02-17T23:05:00.006+08:00

4Days after keeping it at home... the flower become like tt..cool :)

and today went to that super crowded place with XianHan, after school... ...

front u see mr Fortune god, then you see S'pore Pools!!!
still wait for wad? BUY 4D and TOTO!!! HUAT ARH!!!
blessed by Mr Cai Shen!
bought Xianhan's new HP number and his lucky numbers:
even this board says that i should buy 4D and TOTOs!! HUAT ARH!!!

The Year Of Horse! coming in lets see...hmmm... in 4 years time.. yipee
China Magic: (i was so sure he is there! and i found him!!!) haha
then we went to citylink.. walk walk, hungry!!!

something something Taiwan cafe or restaurant: (haha)
his order: ham and cheese burger! and its literally HAM plus Cheese plus BURGER!

hahas!! mine is this bowl of meesua! normal normal lo..and the milk tea is his, normal normal oso...

终于看开爱回不来
我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开
宁愿没出息求我别离开
she said:

friend,lovers or nothing... ...

optimistic

2010-02-14T23:39:00.003+08:00

optimistic - Seriously i don't know wad this word means til

this afternoon when my cousin explained to me.

i was told by someone to be optimistic few days ago.. hmmmm..

China...Church....Meow......

sometimes i think they sucks, (most of the time) but what can i really do?

Jazz!!! you are so afraid to get hurt, u just can't allow youself..seeing your efforts to go to

waste again!

Fuck.

I can't learn to reject, nor to accept. What can i do?

who am i? who is for me? who is not?

What am i talking man!!! so confused, yes i am so confused.... ....

Bigger Motivation!

2010-02-14T03:16:00.001+08:00

Jazz got something new to aim for.

something to work hard for! :)

somethings more to achieve.

at least i am clearer to what i want in life.

will it be applicable in this society?

its for me to know and for me to find out! :)

Nevertheless, I AM HAPPY ^^

i want to be busy and i want to take u with me :)

2010-02-13T10:16:00.003+08:00

i came across many diff motivation theories that i find very meaningful..

one of them is what Kae told me abt Thomas Edison:

upon thousands of failures, he claim to have achieve thousands of methods "not to" invent the light bulb!

YEAH!!!

its not abt never give up, its abt learning from the mistakes and move on!

i rmb how many times i can cry in the middle of the night..damm..

just want to stop thinking abt her.. when Jazz moves, he moves fast.. so...bye bye :)

thx jastina for the balloon ^^

Be the perfect one, and the perfect one will come for you :)

I AM HAPPY

2010-02-12T01:05:00.008+08:00

this is IMO!!! the ultimate Japanese sweet potato from MOF!!!

signed the membership card! :) YIPEEE

"valentine's celebration" with XIANHAN after class at MOF suntec's branch

BADI!!! happy birthday! haha cake in her house yo!

cake in TCC via Peranankan House..making a wish~duh

happy!! :)

ZX, my balloon bears and heart and BADI!!!

so qiao! kinetic Gal! :)

@NTU!!! :) Jocelyn and Jastina

tou tou pai wo huh...

KEKOUMIAN!!! long time no eat..almost a month bah..finallly :')

*tears of happiness

kiss kiss :)

JUST HOW HAPPY AM I?

beli beli hor!

nor nor! badi! and many people brightened my life..

it took me so long.. so much to experienced..

and now i feel so happy, and i know how to be..

i was just smsing some pple , sent them this:

Life is not about theories and feelings.. if abt living to the fullest!

tts enough :) hehe.. and Yizhen replied, how do i know i lived life to the fullest?

now i know:) Doing what you love with who you love :)

THAT IS LIVING TO THE FULLEST :)

hehehe:)

MAGIC!

2010-02-05T23:43:00.002+08:00

just how long will you avoid someone.. til he/she is really gone?

how will u feel? regret? childish? or just proud tt u r emotionless..

how impt is she to me? its not till now then i discover.. its since the first time i am committed.

^U^. or am i not impt anymore..mayb i am..:( FKUC

Magic

2010-02-04T01:04:00.002+08:00

feverish for the past 2 days.. and attendance sucks to the core..

how long can one's youth.. cherish wad u really have now.

:) i used to live my life with Love, noticed i typed: used to...

hehe i read my previous posts.. i have nv really abandoned u, but i guess its too late..

hey.. since i love u recall the past so much, y not recalling even further..

when U was not U, but jie jie? lol...

anyways..

Somethings problems will end up being a solution..just like the problem i had just now.

and anyways..

i noticed i love to type: " Sugaaar ^U^ " & " I love MAGIC! "..stuffs like tt

how will u feel after reading my old posts? i never really changed haven i?

The Art Of Magic isn't what i should cherish the most, but the friendship around me.

Wad does love means to Jazz

2010-02-01T01:54:00.003+08:00

Love, is a four letter word

when bus rides are nv long enough

when both are hungry together and can eat nice nice food like siao

when anywhere could be the best place to be

when both commits 101% time, effort and trust

its not abt understanding already,

its not abt giving in already,

its purely abt loving.

Love is just love!

u know it when u feel it.

its love..

haha

so sweet! :)

all for her

2010-01-31T02:42:00.002+08:00

inspired by the twister fries, comes my new " twister gun " !!!

Met laoda recently.. ya ya..

Singapore is too small...

then check out JB!

...

met JEFF!

yes.. in JB.. :)

it was so random..when i was so tired and moodless..

a phone call came~~~

Kae: want to go JB?

Me: Yes!

and poof! in 20 mins we arrived because my house opposite Checkpoint only! Serious!!

it cheered me up! brought up my mood! and bought a blazer at a very cheap price!!!

WOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO

i wanna thanks some pple. at least some of you make me think otherwise than wad i am thinking now;

are all these in exchange of losing her in my life?

then i rather not.. FCUK

...

why u?

mature love

2010-01-26T00:19:00.002+08:00

maybe i should learn to love more maturely..

and come to the sense that "those" were just selfish thoughts..

kangen..^U^

wad the tooooooooooooooot

2010-01-25T11:53:00.002+08:00

wad just can i do besides complaining?

but this situation sucks, or rather this feeling, because i am the only one thinking this way.

R U?

it should not be... but i was too selfish.

maybe..

or maybe...

does that letter still helps?

sometimes i am very tired...

fuck xxxxxx!

TCCa

2010-01-25T01:16:00.002+08:00

yes! the TCC Gallery at Raffles Place.

had been heading there very frequently..as and when badi works..

very nice place to slack..

just a quick blogging coz long time no blog le..

just thought of those unhappy moments..fucking annoying ones..

but they are mere memories..

of course, if i owe someone a favor i will return, and of course some occations..i seek for revenge.

you people fucking don't know wad you got yourself into, until you have a taste of it.

and you will :)

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