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if these nv happened, probably i will not coming posting here also.

therefore this might be a good thing!

hehe...

i have a life that i wished for, i have a stable magic and ballooning income,

i have a wonderful gf Jocelyn Ng bii bii.

i have good friends around me.

EVEN MR KIKI is inviting me to perform, and yes! we will be standing on the same stage.

Christmas is gonna be fun, 31st december is gonna be madly tiring and exciting!!!

Everything is so perfect, except... ...

when i am tired and want a place to rest, i thought of home, but where is it?

where is my home, my pillow, my bed.. nope.. non of these exists.

i am like a flee hopping around houses and sleep on different beds each weeks..

sometimes not even a bed.

can i have my own room?

or at least a corner of my own..

wait wait nonono, i want a big room!!! to put in all my props!

Wheeeeeee....

just when i think everything is smooth~~~

challenges comes!!! (its problem, but i treat it as a challenge!)

yes i am positive! i don't give a damm abt sadness.

now my challenge is, i am stress and i am trying to fall in love with it.

my time is short (not dying!), but i am going NS!

wohoooo i love SINGAPORE! haha

so i am trying to speed things up here.

my savings...booom went from 2k to zero coz i love spending, without spending a thought of my future..

i just kept thinking of the past, which are not doing anything good.

my GF start to lose passion, i don't blame anyone, in fact i point my finger at myself..because i lack of patient to train and nurture her.

but (this is not an excuse), time is rushing me!!!!

i HAVE TO SPEED UP!

guess what, my father has high expectations on me!!!

he expects me to earn 2K for a month which is very possible!

but i learnt to invest and building up my assets, not just to work for money!!! and thats what i am doing! i am getting back to manage my beloved company with MR KAE! (who is pretty much very successful now)... and he is my ROLE MODEL! yes he is :D

he taught me many things abt money! yes money..

Things i have to do, and i have to teach MS JOCELYN to do :D

coz i know i am responsible for her.

i should stay mature and sensible for what i do.. but i let my emotions over-run me these days..

end.

jocelyn Ng

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was dying

for a moment i thought i was dying.

went to hospital just 2 days ago..

counted down to national day in the hospital...

and for a moment, i thought life could be so fragile..and i feel so much like to hug the one i love.

and tts her:

i hv got many friends around me which i could not bear to lose..

and Mr Kae

its my bibi again...

now i hope i could cherish my life, and of course the girl i love..

right until that moment i know ... i am deeply attached to her..

such a emo post..

ok i am alive, glad that i am..

:DDD

Bi Bi i am sorry :D

I read ur post, and i post here :DDDD and say sorry

and of course thank you too.. thanks for loving me.

I LOVE NG LI ZHEN JOCELYN !!!!

nite nite~~~

Blogging

we all have the freedom to blog..

and i love blogging! ever since i first started magic..

i finally knew..hey! life is fun...

here i note down every part of my life, the lovely ones...and the :'( ones...

maybe thats also why i hold back too much of my past.. especially those :'( ones, repeating non stop in my mind..

i hate it, but i chose it this way..

Lizhen taught me to move on, in a very special way. how i wish i know this girl earlier..

but it is diff isn't it? however this, i think its just the right timing..

a right girl on the right timing.. :)

just stop thinking too much, of the past.

YOYOYO future is waiting, and happy with her. :')

thoughts are addictive

thinking can be addictive..

yeah, its simply like another world.. things are going on in the other world..

and it will affect our reality.. it could be deadly, it could be happy.

let me be positive... i have the power :D

and yeah..

no more doubts..

i Love Jocelyn Ng :)

i am happy when i see your smile bi

could our life be just a joke?

what is true in this world..

i lost insight of everything that seems to be true, because my hope and dreams are mostly spoiled and ungranted by promises that were made..so real..

i couldn't bear the past.. could i even accept who she is, or how her past were.

these thoughts just could not stop running in my mind..

why is it so

why is it so

why is it so

why is it so

WHY IS IT SO?!?!?! DAMM IT, i say DAMM IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life could be just a joke.. Fuck~~

what is love then? we all lie, we all kill, we all sin

we sucks!

i miss everything that were good, peaceful and full of love.

i feel so .. Damn it! right now...

could i just pass away from this world.

not face this reality..

I HATE MY KNOWLEDGE and UNDERSTANDING to this world..

mS jOcelyn, what is in your mind?

what and why?

what am i thinking..

DAMM DAMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can i admit that i love you..

but i miss u..

again.. could i just pass away...

i just hate these everything..

you just could not understand..

hug me if you would, but u didn't..

sometimes "thats all i want" might sounds silly, but thats all i want.

link to my thought and understand me.. please..

help me to understand you as well..

i know you will... you always surprise me..

with the rest of my love... ...

A Human's Mindset

i often look back to the past, thinking negatives though out my mind.

the future don't look any good either.

i miss the days where i treasured the "now", thats when my past did not affect me, and the future is not hindering me..

Biaodi said that human's mind thinks negatives and positives.

but negatives are very powerful... with all positives thoughts in your mind, one single negative could just blow them all away! ~~~

i refuse to move, i just want to stay here... unless someone makes me feel like to...

i hate this feeling of losing something when i get something...

and those feelings that i am about to lose something.

should i just not make those things mine, so that i will not fear of losing it.

but i am happy with it.

or should i mean her~~~

bi~~

should these reflections tell us clearly about ourselves in front of one another..

i should learn to trust ... again... but its really painful to get hurt.

right now i am physically sick, and emotionally thinking a lot... ...

this is what i want, i am happy being who i am.. i want to be with you..

dont start something with an ending in mind -KY BADI

I love you Jocelyn Ng

home to stay

life had been tough ..but glad that i have u around..

bi bi..

i just want a room to practice, a house to stay, a life to work on...

alamak..

feeling sooooo emotional..

and i want internet access..

jocelyn ng bi bi muack!

negative

bought a basic lomo cam for ah bi~~ and learnt abt negative and positive films..

cool cool...

i need some financial plannings..

and the matter of fact that i hate to face the reality makes me spend more..

Urban Circus's dvd haven come yet...hmmmm

many a times i feel like posting negative thoughts, but when i start to think what to write..

i dun feel like being so negative..

so lets write some happy things!!!!!

ok empty too..

guess my head is empty.. ok stop posting..

bibi~~~

vacation modules

post title is vacation module, so i hv to post abt vacation modules.. haha

Miss Lai, my lecturer of the 9am class, is very good!

and its 9am now! omg!!!

i am still blogging -_-"

Balloons brought us together, and as i was wondering nothing comes positively without negativity...

i found out the little spark of jealousy that balloons can actually bring...

but as when i was seeking solution in my heart, i saw a post on facebook by a friend of mine.

He says that life should not be a competition with others, and not even yourself. As life is too short for these things. Be happy is all we need.

Yeah thats roughly abt what i digested from what he wrote.

Bi i Love you ~

living in tomorrow

i still owe him design!

my cousin : ACE Tan Chien Hock

actually i just do finish le! email out and i feel lighter now.. LOL.. by 10 kg! joking!!! waahha

went swensens with bi and kailun yesterday.

i can't finish my icecream! they shared the chocolate fondue, while i had my banana crumble. and yes, i cannot finish, why?

coz i am full..

and one of the staff, a guy, approach me to buy a balloon for his GF!

this is him and his gf:

just joking!!! he is a human la..

i sold him a cute little bunny for $1..

transparent hearts like these are very very nice..

this siao char bor is very cute :D

NG AH BI!!!!!

live in the present, Cherish the NOW :D

i am happy with you~

人间有奇迹！

in the first place, wad do u want to talk abt, keep on asking me to meet up..

everything will just stay at it is...

ah bi and ah bii floating on the water..on the angel hearts..wah i love this photo :D

multiplying fish ball :D

steamboat turn out ok ok onli..

u know i always have the mood to blog..

but when i start typing, i loss the feel..

and hey! i am getting left out behind..

catching up! (and yes, after saying that, i admit i am far behind)

WHAT A FEELING :')

keeps no record of wrongs

LOVE: keeps no record of wrongs

therefore it can be perfect :D

but will it exist?

look at this heart..

sometimes we follow, we learn an we got into a R/S..

we learn to love..

but the sizings and aircontrol is never perfect..

we say.. happily ever after will not exist..

maybe lets try another formula?

this is a perfect heart with a perfect formula :D

weave it nicely!

Perfect love does exist:D

be the right one, and the right one will come :D

the mood to blog

it seems my i haven got the mood to blog for long time..

few days only nia actually, but i use to blog everyday..i think.. haha

the red balloon actually cast a red shadow :D hohoho cool hor

past two days i went to teach a balloon workshop.. and u know hor.. Ah bi very fierce leh..haha but i like ~

i know u will say: EEEEEEEEEE

ok fine! 

how much? $50? -____-"

these are the students, 9 in total. 2 came from outside the student care so u see they look older.. 3 is hiding behind the chairs.. haha

i think hor, Mr Lim, the principle.. the very funny .. haha

he can be very very fierce and at the same time very blur.. LOL

After the workshop yesterday (which end up fun :D ), we went to IMM..

walk walk walk, and she emo coz of somethings..

so i try to make her laugh :D

and then we head to my fav! TCC at raffles :D

with these Ah bii and Ah bi.. haha

then we went to eat bakut teh, and my stomach is exploding!

hohoho but it never explode, heng~

crossing the road...

on top of the lion outside dunno wad hotel..near funan there.. :P

and we walk and walk and crap and laugh and we reached Cityhall MRT :D

yes we walk from clarke quay to cityhall to digest the food lo..

and we bounce, poing!!! from cityhall to marina, and back to khatib..

sent her back home and meet Norvin Ong!

He walk me to Khatib Mrt lo!!! super touched :D

i love ah bi~~

Urban circus

waiting for photos an video! haha

i know i could have done better,,

but!

haha you seems to be more important to me then this show~ hmmm

in the dressing room! dressed up!

this was in the morning~ did a kids show at suntec :DDD

ok back to urban circus!

upon arrival, i saw this..

so i snapped a photo

nowadays my bones seems to dislocate very suddenly..

major parts are my fingers, and now my toes!

OMG!

will i die?

CHOI!

haha its kinda rushing today, but its wonderful!!!

looking forward!

my MaGiCAl dAy!!!

realization

Success is a day to day realisation of preplanned personal worthwhile goal!

-ChienHock Fav Quote

day by day, i choose to drown myself in my emotions, but i knew that tt would

never be the right way to live life.

Mikki once told me, the best way to cheer urself up, is to help people cheer up :D

Happiness spreads :D its just that magical :D

i miss many people in my life... ...

now i know the only thing we can do is to cherish what we have around us!

its really really important

ooo these two rat-bits are attached ..haha

haven i lost focus in life?

having a dream is powerful enough for someone to move on, and do greater things.

i want to remind myself each day..

An Entertainment restaraunt! it will be realized!

blogging blogging blogging. workload seems to pile up, and thats the result of keeping too many promises to people around me. should i be more reluctant in accepting or agreeing in helping others?

this situation makes me feel like doing nothing, ya.. simply doing nothing... ...

i've almost love to give up hope if i thought i could not give my best to anything. should i be emotionally attach to someone when the fact it no one will stay with you forever. People come and go, thats the law of this universe we r living in.

I know i must be back to watch the finals, i have to keep my promise. and thats a tough one.

can i tell you how i feel?

Miiss Jocelyn drew this out

:D haha

passion

(brasbasah MRT)
this whole journey is certainly like magic!

school's officially over! hmmm actually not yet, for ME!!! hmmm so many modules to retake.

i am really happy to be able to start learning magic and changed my life. . .

to be able to learning from Fuming, Kiankok (whom i still have negative thinking against)

and met Jannson, Mark, Jimmy, Jason Lei, Jaspas, Brandon...

many many things happen along the way... then i got to know Benny, Paul, Melvin, whom got me into show biz... and the journey goes on..

i came to know who's Jeremy Pei, Kiki Tay, Alex T, Kyle Ravin and many professional Magicians!!!

I nv gave up on stage magic, no matter how lousy i was at that time... its really nervous going up on stage, but i love to show the world like: hey, i can do magic! i am not useless.

but now truely, i want my magic to bring hope to people, i want my magic to entertain people, i want my magic to touch the heart of people. and i want my magic to inspire people, just like how i got inspired.!!!

Thank the Universe for my beloved one and only BADI..

Its like MAGIC!! to later got to know MArkson, Nor Nor, Jocelyn and Jastina!

I LOVE EVERYONE OF YOU!!!!!! :DDDD

sorry if ur name is not mentioned, but u know who u r lo..haha!!!

I LOVE MAGIC SO MUCH! Its an art of bringing hope to both the performer and the audience :D

action speaks louder all the time

but i just don;t think it is loud enough to reach to... ...

anyways, just read Kae's blog yesterday night, and he says his mummy found her blog!

wah if my mama found my blog~~ O.o...

and he posted something abt blogging style..ya lor.. diff pple diff blogging style.

of course, just like him, we both love Jannson's blogging style.. :D

a photo, and talk something funny, then another photo, and something funny.. haha the whole blog post become very funny..

u know u know???

but my blogging now is like Badi's, one photo, many words..actually is purposely, so that some people will lazy to read..haha but if u want to know wad i am thinking then read on.. LOL

yes i miss her so much!!! why??!?!? die die must stop.. but i just feel like flying out now to find her!!!!! i just told some stupid lies to her that i am not going because @#$#%..

but u know u know .. @#$#@%#@..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA MR KAE throw this event to me and #@#$%@

ok not blaming him.. now he bill gates le, dun need do a lot of things.. haha JOKING!!

yeah we r both JUST JOKING!

HAHAHA i want to go find her.. ok it will be a surprise then.. dun care le.. ok go out now! HUAT ARH

june

...
i m irritated,

i am sad,

i am jealous..

i am all negative! DAMM!!

teach me how to not PRETEND TO BE NEGATIVE

but really be positive..

ok i try..

June~ CHIOBU RIGHT?!?!

*haha

and she never hv bf b4 !!!

this makes me feel this world still got hope!!! (note: i am not eyeing on her)

but its really unbelievable lor!!!

Represented AlphaPlus and performed a 20 mins show at Club52!

this is so last min! I told Mr kae not to come, coz u see the stage!!!!!

its not even a stage!! Pub setting..

managed to put up some last min acts.. whew.. and..

June and i went off early.

and we ate brownies :DD

and drank soya milk.. chat chat a while..

but didn't expect that this morning's meeting will be cancelled :(

I TOLD HER I WILL WAIT FOR HER O-LEVELS TO FINISH!! haha

and Yizhen also quite good looking, also nt bf b4.

nowadays this kinda girl very rare!

feel so touched when one of this kinda girl exist.. really touched

u might be thinking i siao.. but really lor!

i also so good looking, but have ONE GF b4.. aiya.. wasted?

eh...

hv i not forgotten my own self-promised promise???

good night :D

blue ah bi~

went to perform at Club 52 for a Dinner... and i made a blue ah bi to accompany me :D

on my floating table...

ah bi go toilet with me to change up...

it was fun performing. thx jeremy soon, alvin and te rest for cheering like crazy .. LOL..

and June!

however.. she can't help me anymore due to O-levels..

:(

its ok, people come and go... ...

aren't we just like strangers right now?

ok la..

ah biis on cab (260 de ah bii)

NAVY open house!!! haha had fun :DDD

b4 the show, we made 260 male ah bii..

logo changed!!!

lazy to type words..

ok..going off for shows..

err hem, sounds like someone.. but.. really going off for shows la.. haha

ah bi~~

i just want balloons to last forever. i hope it is possible..

i hate looking at u like a stranger, and u looked back like one too.

Fuck~

18th May

it was 2 yrs ago.. MEOW~

damm, these wounds just can;t seems to heal...

i miss u badly

Quite a few events are going on recently. this month i have some big shows coming, with my theatre appearance in JC Sum's Urban Circus!

in June we have tons of workshops, and Kae's SMC magic finals!

July will be full of shows! August hope i dun go into army yet, will be spending my time updating the designs! September will be JeremyPei's Theatre show which Willy will be performing!!! WOW!

LOL HUAT ARH!!!

J&J Twisting!

Jocelyn and Jastina,( in their sweet 18) are really passionate about balloons. With only 2 years of balloon twisting experience, they had already did more than hundred of events, twisting more than thousands of thousands of balloons for little children out there. Their curiosity in balloons pushed them to further explore new techniques and new sculptures. Up til now, they never stop learning and practicing. If you would to ask me: how many sculptures can they twist? I would say: The sky is their limit!

foto shoot with J&J

wanted to start off by posting a non edited photo, but i am rushing! hohoho

so this will be a quick one:

Really thanks Norman for helping with the shooting, and Xueting for the Make-ups on the girls.

Thank William and Ken for coming and help out.

i was kinda disappointed at first, with the results of the photos. however, photoshop save the day!

Good job Jocelyn and Jastina as well, its your first time, but u did a great job trying your best to pose in front of the big black camera! haha especially when there are people walking around.

The final result is kinda studio-ish!

thats great!

stay tune for more photos in my facebook. Blogsite and some brand identity coming out soon:D

HUAT ARH!!!

i enjoy these balloony and magical days.

i will not look back.. no more...

you cheated

yeah u cheated, u did a shortcut..

while i took another way route.. consider this.

a week VERSUS a year.

this afternoon, a song's lyrics caught my attention.

it writes about one, leaving the single party, bearing the pain of the past relationship.

hmmmm u did admit, but i couldn't face the fact.. u love another man

I will be performing:

that will make me a bastard, just like that china fucker.

i dare not write much...

had been sticking to Jocelyn for these days...

She has good balloon skills and talent and passion. Thats good, thats good...

We "dreamt" the tutorial of this new "heart" weaving.

Ahh its kinda confusing i know, but we had to keep it a top secret.! :D *wink

she name it: Angel Heart

:D i had to stop, somehow..