Blogging

we all have the freedom to blog..

and i love blogging! ever since i first started magic..

i finally knew..hey! life is fun...

here i note down every part of my life, the lovely ones...and the :'( ones...

maybe thats also why i hold back too much of my past.. especially those :'( ones, repeating non stop in my mind..

i hate it, but i chose it this way..

Lizhen taught me to move on, in a very special way. how i wish i know this girl earlier..

but it is diff isn't it? however this, i think its just the right timing..

a right girl on the right timing.. :)

just stop thinking too much, of the past.

YOYOYO future is waiting, and happy with her. :')

thoughts are addictive

thinking can be addictive..

yeah, its simply like another world.. things are going on in the other world..

and it will affect our reality.. it could be deadly, it could be happy.

let me be positive... i have the power :D

and yeah..

no more doubts..

i Love Jocelyn Ng :)

i am happy when i see your smile bi

could our life be just a joke?

what is true in this world..

i lost insight of everything that seems to be true, because my hope and dreams are mostly spoiled and ungranted by promises that were made..so real..

i couldn't bear the past.. could i even accept who she is, or how her past were.

these thoughts just could not stop running in my mind..

why is it so

why is it so

why is it so

why is it so

WHY IS IT SO?!?!?! DAMM IT, i say DAMM IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

life could be just a joke.. Fuck~~

what is love then? we all lie, we all kill, we all sin

we sucks!

i miss everything that were good, peaceful and full of love.

i feel so .. Damn it! right now...

could i just pass away from this world.

not face this reality..

I HATE MY KNOWLEDGE and UNDERSTANDING to this world..

mS jOcelyn, what is in your mind?

what and why?

what am i thinking..

DAMM DAMM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can i admit that i love you..

but i miss u..

again.. could i just pass away...

i just hate these everything..

you just could not understand..

hug me if you would, but u didn't..

sometimes "thats all i want" might sounds silly, but thats all i want.

link to my thought and understand me.. please..

help me to understand you as well..

i know you will... you always surprise me..

with the rest of my love... ...

A Human's Mindset

i often look back to the past, thinking negatives though out my mind.

the future don't look any good either.

i miss the days where i treasured the "now", thats when my past did not affect me, and the future is not hindering me..

Biaodi said that human's mind thinks negatives and positives.

but negatives are very powerful... with all positives thoughts in your mind, one single negative could just blow them all away! ~~~

i refuse to move, i just want to stay here... unless someone makes me feel like to...

i hate this feeling of losing something when i get something...

and those feelings that i am about to lose something.

should i just not make those things mine, so that i will not fear of losing it.

but i am happy with it.

or should i mean her~~~

bi~~

should these reflections tell us clearly about ourselves in front of one another..

i should learn to trust ... again... but its really painful to get hurt.

right now i am physically sick, and emotionally thinking a lot... ...

this is what i want, i am happy being who i am.. i want to be with you..

dont start something with an ending in mind -KY BADI

I love you Jocelyn Ng

home to stay

life had been tough ..but glad that i have u around..

bi bi..

i just want a room to practice, a house to stay, a life to work on...

alamak..

feeling sooooo emotional..

and i want internet access..

jocelyn ng bi bi muack!