do i deserve?

jocelyn ng lizhen,

i believe you might be wondering many things now,
and u want to be alone.

but trust me, two is always better than one.

can i deserve to have one more chance?

i promise you for the very last time,
not to make you scared, and cry anymore... ...

i want to give you happiness

i can't change my temper, but i can hide it.

i can't change my thinkings, but i can overwrite it.

i can't change my negative feelings, but i can remind myself that i love you. the girl whom i promise to live my whole life with.

hope you are reading all these~~~ i don't know why, but i will never give up.
you can call that stubborn, or even childish.

yes, i know you are the one whom i am searching for, we have been through so much together. it is too late to give up.

mei mei and mei mei's mei mei and the rest are all praying for us.
we gave them life remember?
take your time~

-Yixiang-

i am 21 le!

wah my blog long long nv update le..

first of all, my blog profile stills writes 20 yrs old.

i am 21 le! haha

i love mei mei and mei mei's meimei although she is not nice to smell.

i love stitch

i love cotton although she takes up bii bii's time by a lot.

i love bii bii / mummy

and i love the girl who can understand all of these...
she tolerated me for more than a year.

She took care of me and been with me all these while,
we quarrel,
we fight,
we smile,
we laugh,
we work,
we cry,
we love
each other as much as each other.

I LOVE, and sincerely wants to be with her til i grow old.

Jocelyn Ng LiZhen, i am sorry. :'( please forgive me

army days

trying very hard to survive this kind of life..

seeing my friends get use to it, it makes me even harder to accept.

My only motivation of living is Jocelyn Ng, i love her so much.. ..

I love to be with her, i hate to be in army, in camp.

I reported sick as i was vommiting and having diarreoh.. too anxious..
Mo doubted me, and put me to sick-bay to observe me..

wad do they want? see me vomit? but i can't eat anything, i dun have the mood, wad can i vommit? but i feel like vommiting always..

especially after food.. i vomit, most of the times.. can anyone believe me and see this as something wrong, seriously wrong in my life?

feels giddy easily, mentally so weak and so dried up..

:'( FML