A Human's Mindset

i often look back to the past, thinking negatives though out my mind.

the future don't look any good either.

i miss the days where i treasured the "now", thats when my past did not affect me, and the future is not hindering me..

Biaodi said that human's mind thinks negatives and positives.

but negatives are very powerful... with all positives thoughts in your mind, one single negative could just blow them all away! ~~~

i refuse to move, i just want to stay here... unless someone makes me feel like to...

i hate this feeling of losing something when i get something...

and those feelings that i am about to lose something.

should i just not make those things mine, so that i will not fear of losing it.

but i am happy with it.

or should i mean her~~~

bi~~

should these reflections tell us clearly about ourselves in front of one another..

i should learn to trust ... again... but its really painful to get hurt.

right now i am physically sick, and emotionally thinking a lot... ...

this is what i want, i am happy being who i am.. i want to be with you..

dont start something with an ending in mind -KY BADI

I love you Jocelyn Ng